Thursday, February 10th, 2011
I’ve noticed that there are stages of reclaiming yourself. The first stage is to realize that the “something missing” in your life is YOU. And that can be very depressing. The next stage is finding yourself. Who are you? Do you like yourself? What do you like? What have you been accepting in your life that you really DON’T like? How do you work best when nobody’s telling you what to do and how to do it? What do you work on, given a choice? Where does all your energy go? Is that a good thing?
Eventually, we embrace a few drastic changes to our lifestyle, our community-group, our goals. It’s huge, and exhausting, and it takes a while. But we are so much happier, and we get to be authentically ourselves in this new stage of the life we’ve created. A lot of big pieces of our life stay the same. Same family, same job maybe. It’s how we go about interacting with those things that experiences the biggest shift. The world has moved under our feet, and as a result, we’re more centered.
I think the next step is to refuse to interact with anything that smells of our old life, our old way of being, the lies we used to tell ourselves so we could get through one more day. We get angry, we walk away, we take time for ourselves, we look for a different kind of friend. It’s like standing on top of a mountain, and shouting “HERE I AM, WORLD!” at the top of our lungs, heart racing with joy.
I recently encountered a reminder of the next, more difficult step. Or perhaps it only seems more difficult because it’s the one you haven’t taken yet. When we get to this point, we learn that sometimes NOT walking away– and still being our authentic selves– is even more important. Instead of leaving every unhealthy situation, we practice changing the situations themselves so that they are healthy and do support our authentic way of being in the world.
Every relationship requires some growing, shifting, learning how to be there and still be fully yourself. Work situations, partnerships (the at-home kind), relationships with our grown know-it-all children or our not-so-perfect parents. So eventually, we have to learn to negotiate through that and stay whole. Not give up our essential self, and not give up our career or our marriage of 20 years, or whatever it is that you’re not ready to walk away from. We can’t change another person, only ourselves. But changing a situation doesn’t always mean we have to walk away from it.
HOWEVER, and this is part of the challenge, if you are being abused– physically or emotionally– or if the other people in the relationship/situation want you to fail— I fully support walking away as the BEST solution. Don’t put yourself (or your children/pets/career) in danger by staying in an unsafe, unstable and unpredictable situation. Learn the difference between a challenge and a threat…
Life is meant to be embraced, enjoyed, interacted with, decided upon. And life has many stages. Living is all about growing, changing, improving, sharing, enjoying. Look closely at any part of your life that is stuck short of even one of these words. No growth? How stifling! No sharing? How sad. There are millions of lonely people out there who need a mentor, a friend, or someone to be a mentor to. Join a book club at the library. Join a hiking club. Join a community center. Be a big brother. Volunteer. Ask for help. You don’t have to do this alone.
Be Well.
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